23-24 January 2016.
So, Luukas and I text.
How can we have this much in common?
He’s a teacher too – though he teaches physics; his father is also a retired social worker; he’s divorced with adult kids; loves volleyball and running (well OK, he runs marathons – I struggle to jog 5km). He’s lived in Oulu, Jyväskylä, Porvoo and Stockholm, and like me, lives in Helsinki now. And more.
He convinces Anna to call her up immediately. She’s intrigued and a phone call would be a first. Why not?
Oh, no! He sounds soooooo formal. And laughs exactly like Santa Claus, “Ho, Ho, Ho. Anna, you are so adorable! Ho, Ho, Ho.”
But he seems like a good person. Plus, he’s in very good shape, in his really blurry pic. So Anna decides to accept his invitation to have tea the next evening.
“Oh, Thank you, thank you. Ho Ho. Where?”
She’s slowly started to feel that, when unsure, why go all the way to the other side of the center. Let them come to me.
She doesn’t tell him her neighborhood, of course, but suggests a gaming restaurant on Tyynenmerenkatu.
On Sunday, after a pleasant day with a little jogging, she’s not feeling too excited, but still, when a human being gives you their precious commodity of time, the least you can do is get nicely groomed for the date and look as cute as possible. It’s a matter of respect.
And what if he ends up being the One, huh? I don’t ever want to regret not showing up looking good.
Nothing over the top. Just the usual.
Shower. Hair, light make up. A casual outfit. A nice overcoat and a beautiful, fashionable scarf.
A sincere smile, self-confidence and eye-to-eye contact are anyone’s most important accessories.
Luukas walks up to her on the dark street, blond, tall, handsome and… shy! Poor dear.
The restaurant is closed, so change of plans, and they go to the Little Big Café inside Verkkokauppa.
Anna can’t remember anymore all the things they talked about that day. She does remember, however, that he was intelligent, timid, and…
… kept on talking about all the wrong topics.
(a) His upcoming unemployment and no stress in looking for another job.
Oh, my. His hair looks so oily. Didn’t he wash it for the date?
(b) His illnesses. And the pain and discomfort.
This keeps getting better.
Hey, we all have our conditions, but please! Win me over with your talents, your confidence and your charm, first. Show me what all your good qualities are.
Slowly. No hurry. A little mystery is good.
Hey you Mr. Wanted out there: win me over and then I won’t mind your brokenness. I have my share, too.
Skills, people, dating skills.
I’m here practicing mine. OK, then I can stay a little longer and do this in peace. I’m not wasting my time. Phew. Oh, poor-fit-marathon, dear. Good attributes, but why are you wearing a cheap, old-looking, hoodie? The color doesn’t suit you. It’s too small and has a couple of holes in it. It looks like a teenager’s hand-me-down.
From the last decade!!
Btw, there’s a youTube relationship coach with good advice out there. Matt Boggs. Please, check him out. Respectable stuff.
Some of us need it more than others…
It’s not about positivism, but working to become a better version of yourself. It will take work, but you yourself will benefit the most.
Saturday, 30 January 2016.
A few days later, Anna goes to the Educa Messu, an education fair for teachers. Guess who she bumps into there?
He gets all happy and excited to see her and grabs her hand, pulling her to see different stands.
Walking hand in hand, she panics on the inside and is shocked into passiveness.
Akward! Does he think we’re on a date?? What if my teacher colleagues spot us like this? Some don’t even know I’ve separated yet. They’ll think I’ve found myself a teacher lover.
She has the idea to get deeply mesmerized by some pedagogical books opposite them, and thus has to let go of his hands to flip its many, many pages. Genius.
Still, he finds ways of grabbing her hand again. So she repeats the trick.
He doesn’t take her hand in his again and she feels better.
Anna has been fasting today and is feeling quite weak. The fair is over and Luukas invites her to have a hamburger at Sävel in Kallio. They’re on the tram and she’s feeling so weak that she just goes there with him.
Just being friendly. And ravenous!
Besides, she’s told him he’s nice, “but sorry, I realized I’m not ready for a relationship or dating yet.”
They have a chat about work while they dig into their burgers. He’s OK.
And he gulps his beers.
But then, after eating he brings his chair that had been safely opposite hers to her side of the table.
He hugs her and starts kissing her cheeks.
At a burger restaurant?? People are watching!
She shows him with her body language that she’s not interested, but he kisses her ear and whispers, “I’m a very passionate man! Must be my half-Russian blood!”
“Sorry! Stop! I’m not ready.”
“Oh, Anna, you’re simply wonderful.”
“Thanks, but no. Not ready yet. Thank you for your company. I’m feeling tired, so I’ll have to go now.”
They bump into other once more, when Anna’s with Kristiina at Stadium in Kamppi. Anna introduces the two and the three of them chat for a minute.
“Mom, he’s so handsome and nice!”
“Yes, he is. But he’s not for me.”
I’ll really have to do that research on how to politely let a man know I’m not interested.
© 2017 rf
Obs. Day 34-35 since moving out.